If I Would Have Known
If I would have known that I would not return to China
I would have hiked the mountains one more time
I would have walked along the ocean just once more
I would have explored those places I always meant to
I would have ordered all my favorite foods
I would have savored every bite
I would have held my cat a little longer
I would have hugged each of my students
I would have told them all how loved they are
I would have shed a tear or three or four
I would have gotten hotpot one last time with my awesome third grade team
I would have had friends over to our home for pizza and a movie
If I would have only known,
I would have at least said goodbye...
But, I didn't know.
And now my heart's just breaking
As I long for all these things again
But that door's no longer open.
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